~10:56 AM

omg omg look at how fat i look in this photo. the face is so damn round and the fair skin only make things worse. i never realise my face look so round then. is it photo not accurate or i really look so fat. so scary!! n i am wondering if i also look so fat now. so scary. i came across a dove trustfund ad on youtube before. there was a girl standing in front of the mirror in her undergarments, then she was examing her tummy, thighs and stuff- looking at how much much adipose is underneath that skin. then the scene jumps and the girl standing in front of the mirror becomes a malnourished girl who is literally a bag of bones- gu shou ru chai. but the reflection in the mirror that she sees herself as is still the girl who is fat. so in real fact, this girl is already very thin- too thin actually, but she continues to think that she is fat.

on some days, i feel that i look ok, but on other days, i feel that i look fat. is it all illusion? haha. it's like i dont really trust my eyes anymore. some mirrors also not accurate. i wish i can see myself through the eyes of another person, then i suppose i can really see if i look fat or not. hahaha.

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Monday, April 16, 2007
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