~1:42 PM

waha! it's been a long time since i last blogged! this week is nice i think. because most of the time i just sit in the office and enter data, suits a lazy-bum, which is, me. it's like, Mon was just here not too long ago and now it's already Thurs. tmr i'll shout out TGIF to myself and then the long-awaited weekend will be here again! yea, so excited!

sunday morning im going to my granduncle's tomb to sao3 mu4. i was hesistant about going at first cuz papa dont want to take leave to go with us which include my grandma, grandaunty, uncle- all of whom i dont really have much to talk to. then later on, i felt that i really want to go, for some reason. maybe because i feel that my granduncle wishes to see me lol. oh yea then after sao mu, will go to bugis! yea. havent been there for a long long time so surely can shop for very long. feel excited to visit lovely land again, hope they import more new stuff, like artbox. so chio.then, also wanna go to bugis village to shop for some tops. i think i need some coloured tees although black really has the slimming effect, esp black and fitting tops wahaha.

anw, want to talk a bit about my colleague. yesterday she asked me to write a report for her because she is attending a class now and she has no time to finish it. the report is part of her homework and she wanted to pay me ten bucks. i should have said no need yesterday, but i dint and i told papa and he said that i shouldnt take it so today when she wanna gimme the money i declined it but in the end she won by saying that i keep the money first next time we go and eat kfc then she went on to say that she likes kfc better than mcspicy. i know she's trying to change the topic so i let her. in the end, i kept the money but i'd decided to go and buy the japanese octopus for her on monday- although i never really like her but not to the extent of dislike also.

then, almost everyday, she'll ask me if i find her job very complicated. i'll say yes and then she'll go on to comment that it's very interesting huh. it's become a sort of a routine that i find it a lil farnie. then she'll complain that her salary is little and the things she has to do are too much and that her bosses are discussing to hire a graduate at 2000+ bucks and then she'll leave. i think she's quite a poor thing sometimes but she seems to be enjoying her job. i dont know, maybe she is trying to be strong haha.

ok fri coming! looking forward to jens dinner tomorrow night. :D

``el

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Thursday, March 29, 2007
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~5:07 PM

Having to make a decision that may affect my future, i keep thinking about what i want to be in future. Teacher? Accountant? Or...what? Actually i am unsure of all the jobs available in Singapore now, i think i shall pick up a copy of Career Guide in the near future. Hmmm, so, i find it strange that there are all kinds of position available in a company. and how do people know what to do when they turn up on the first day? Surely there will be seniors to guide us along but i still feel that some people never really know what they are supposed to do. People like me. I feel that i am rather redundant in my current job. Perhaps it's because i am only a temporary administrative assistant.

Today, i spent 6hrs at the office doing practically nothing. it's really ironic when i think about how much work i had to do back at giant and 5 bucks per hour is all i get. now i slack so much, with free food from the workshops held and getting to go home at 3 yet i get almost the same pay. i really shouldnt be complaining. but i just feel that it's really strange. how come cashiers are so poor thing, work so much yet get so little pay. just because it doesnt require much thinking? construction workers are poor things too.

anyway, i find that many working adults slack! especially office jobs. for me, my post now is ke you ke wu, yet my colleague told me one day that she couldnt have done without me. i thought she was kidding but she wasnt apparently. so i asked her why dont wanna hire another permanent administrator and she replied that the union is on a tight budget. but then, i feel that it is quite stupid. hiring another person is a long run investment wad. they hire me at 6/hour, not very little also, then i couldnt help my colleague in many stuff, and then when i leave soon, what next? hmmm.

i find that manpower is not fully utilised. i asked jane about her job and she also said that sometimes she will purposely work slower on a task because after she has finished that, she would have nothing to do. i always got nothing to do recently then whenever she gave me a task i was quite glad because i dont have to sit there wondering what to do anymore and feeling bad being paid to sit around. i think she also know that i got nothing to do. i took out a paper and start doodling thinking about what to do when i got home. that day, i asked my papa about his job, then he told me that sometimes he got nothing to do, then he'll go and sleep under the tree. omg, that was quite a piece of news. and then i was reading marian keyes's non-fiction book and she wrote that back when she was an accountant, her colleagues will all fight for the task of going to the bank and then took their own sweet time- claiming that there was a queue at the bank.

i find it very farnie that going to work means this. maybe there are really busy times when many many workers are needed. but when they're not needed, how come they cannot leave the office early? why must pretend to be doing something when there isnt anything much to do. so weird!


``el

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Friday, March 16, 2007
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~4:38 PM

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~10:44 AM

i think i'll blog alot recently. cuz im trying to act busy in the office. my colleague always claims to be busy but i find that she likes to chat very long on the phone with whoever calls hahaha. but then i shan't interfere since im not gonna stay here for long. i was entering some members' names from a book into the computer recently and i came across many farnie names. like people called Bee Hoon. omg. if my name is that i may just die. actually the name sounds perfectly fine in chinese- 美云. and then there are some names that i feel that parents really favour sons more. like 来娣, 连娣, 福娣. so gross right. hahaha. very unfair to females.

anw, this morning when i woke up i feel a bit good. i still dread going to work as every other morning but i kept reminding myself that today is friday and that 3pm will come very quickly! then i think listening to 933 in the morning is pretty not bad, helps to lift my mood a little.

last night i watched the news. they say that while jolin couldnt come to singapore yesterday because of a flu, she went to a fashion show in taiwan as endorsement. apparently, she couldnt come to singapore cuz she needed to attend the fashion show which earns her lotsa money right. yet, her fans feel that she is a poor thing cuz she had to work despite being ill. ha ha ha. so naive hor. it's so obvious that jolin's jing ji ren told a lie to the media. but then sometimes, we like to believe in things that are untrue. like im most willing to believe it when someone tells me that i am not fat although i tend to be skeptical at times.


``el

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Friday, March 09, 2007
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~2:23 PM

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Thursday, March 08, 2007
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~11:46 PM

i think i am a little morbid. just a little. or maybe i am not haha. it's like, i feel that melancholic stuff are kind of pretty. like, sad lyrics. it touches the heart so much that i think i feel 陶醉其中, i can close my eyes and feel the pain. usually it brings a kind of regret and maybe that is why it is beautiful. when things dont end completely, we can still imagine and pretend that the supposed ending will be a happy one. in chinese, there's this word called 凄美. from the word itself, it's meaning is obvious. and seems like it's not only me who appreciates this kind of beauty :D

快乐或是普天同庆的事纵然在人们的心芽产生一种充满希望的力量, 但往往昙花一现. 唯有凄美的传说才能让人记忆犹新. 例如梁山伯与祝英台. 虽然不能在一起但却双双化成蝴蝶腾空飞舞. 画面带点人世间的遗憾. 但, 是美丽的.
再举例. 试着想象壮丽牺牲的烈士, 还有百战百胜的将军. 闭上眼试试设身处地. 虽然后者得到的是无比的仰慕和光荣. 但前者能为国捐躯命,丧战场又如何. 死亡的那一刻也必定是最美丽的.

i hope i dont sound scary. i indeed like to write sad phrases more. i've tried to write those 激励人心 sentences but very difficult and most of the time i feel that what ive written is very plastic. but i do admire those lyricist who writes such lyrics, for example mayday ashin, some fir songs de lyricist. very chio and pretty too. okie tt's all.


``el

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007
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~3:08 PM

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
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~10:13 PM

my father did something really touching today! a few days back, i told him that i dont know how to go to furama hotel. i actually begged him to go with me on saturday, but he said he needed to work. omg, im so immatured right. so anw, i thought i am left to zi sheng zi mie already. i was damn scared, because im very poor at locating places, then sometimes im also too shy to ask around. i think one of my greatest fears is to go to a foreign place alone. anw, today my father came home late, then he told me that he went to take bus 33 to look for furama hotel for me! after work when he ought to be tired. i really felt like crying. i totally didnt expect him to do such a thing and suddenly i feel that i havent really done anything for him. ='(
yet sometimes he can be really evil to me.
only someone you love can make you 又爱又恨.

``el

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Friday, March 02, 2007
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we dream together.we spin tales of candy sugar together.we watch the world go by together. We the group, the posse, the band, the rockers. Together, us.