~10:26 PM

guess who is this?? lol =)

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Thursday, February 23, 2006
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~1:41 AM

Actually i think communication is a very mysterious and powerful gift from the creator of human beings.
All life beings on earth communicate in various different ways eg through signals and receptors btw pollen grains n stigma, making sounds understood only by the species they belong to, erm cant think of anymore.
To us humans, we speak, make gestures bla bla bla.
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Actually i suspect i have a communication problem!!!!! i wonder why some people can click with anyone and almost everyone and some, like me, can only talk to my 同类.

Actually the girls in my classes are basically all quite nice but i just have nothing to say to them other than bo liao things like:today's weather is very fine ar!!!
Sometimes i even have nothing to say to one or two of the friends i mix with. it's weird too, i have absolutely NOTHing to say to the guys in my class. Is there something wrong with me? Because i wonder why some girls can chat with the guys in my class....and they're not even flirting!!

Why do i have problems communicating ar?
actually i realise that people also cant hear my voice when i talk at normal volume. it's not that my voice is softer than others but...did it sort of blend in with the environment? As a result when i'm trying to talk to someone, half of the time he/she seem to ignore me:( therefore i look like i'm talking to myself and i look incredibly silly.

Errrr.....everything sucks at school: two gigantic red spots put themselves on my face, one on each cheek, similar in size such that they look symmetrical about the line from the top of the bridge of my nose to my chin. Someone commented that i look like a clown!!! ok i guess she's joking i shall try not to mind.

i'e tried everytihng from pimple creams to mopiko, the famous cream you apply on mosquito bites. Right now i'm using something called 雪花膏, as suggested by my mum. hope it works.

Hope i'm not sounding like Adrian Mole, u noe, the very famous 13 n 3/4 yrs old boy.



s.m

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Saturday, February 18, 2006
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~11:15 PM

yea today is valentine's day, it is quite a lovely sight in school, seeing those flowers, balloons, sweets, chocs etc. we exchange gifts for the angel&mortal game and i think my angel and i plus my mortal and i are telepathic! i gave my angel sth from action city and she gave me a super cute soft toy from action city too! it is green in colour^^ called mokozi but i cant find any pictures of it. i gave my mortal a chio metal box and she gave me a lovely winnie the pooh metal box too! so qiao! hahaha. but i think i am not a very nice senior because i dont really know what to say to them. it seems so easy to communicate thru letters, like can say alot of crap. my ideal senior should be one who knows how to take care of others, with 大将之风 that kind u know. so i failed as one-__-

other than mr matt, jens exchanged letters and i am quite paiseh to say that my letters to all of u are 千篇一律, very 内容穷. actually i feel that some feelings, wishes and thoughts are easier expressed in letters and not verbally. but i forgot to do sth during the weekend so i got not much time to write long letters on monday because i do like to write letters. i have some stuff to say in reply to the letters but i dont know where to say it so forget it la hor. so to make up for the rather 逊 letters, i wrote a chinese poem this afternoon, hope u all enjoy :D

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
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~8:41 PM

Hihi. I am both happy and sad this week lor.
Happy becuz Frenship day coming! I can give my chio presents to my junior.

But Frenship day will oso be the day i am taking Mock NAPHA. And indeed it is to MOCK me. What the....most prob i am going to fail 2.4, SBJ and pull-up!!

Its no fair...why do i have to do 5 pull ups??? Yea. This year in addition to the A levels, i oso have to worry abt the NAPHA thingy, which may possibly sent me straight into Paula Tekong like 2 months earlier....Life is so unfair

Well...life is indeed unfair anyway. So why cant i just play for the rest of my life? Since its just a miserly 60 to 70 years only. Bleah!

If i could choose, maybe i would rather be stricken with Down Syndrome instead.

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Monday, February 13, 2006
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~9:44 AM

this week was pretty tiring for me. everyday i'll wake up hoping to go back under my comfy covers after school. but, no chance to do that this week, and the worse thing is, i never complete most of my tutorials so i really dreaded going to school. everyday i'll feel so tired-dont know what i have been doing to cause me so too since tutorials are still undone. monday kicked off the start of a new week and when i failed the mock test for inclined pull-up and standing broad jump, i should have sensed that this week wont be nice and smooth. it is really unfair leh. to determine the fitness of one in this kind of stupid manner. i really cant pull myself up la what is the big deal. fine my arms are weak. and then what? just let me fade away can. the same thing happens every year and i really dont know why my arms are unusually weak. i mean, i dont see the girls in my class training their arms but yet they are able to do it. it's gonna be monday soon, and maybe i'll just die from embarassment once again. arrrrrr. save me please.

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Saturday, February 11, 2006
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~3:11 PM

Hi! To whoever reading this piece of rubbish. Haha

Ok, recently for bio, we are taught about
Evolution - Darwin's Theory of evolution, Natural Selection, Artificial Selection and vv some useful crap for A level.

After that reading the part about natural selection, I suddenly realized something. See arhz, for natural and artificial selection rite, the theory behind it is that organisms in a population have variance due to mutation, random mating of organism, random fertilization of gametes, and formation of bivalents, independent assortment and whatsoever (!!!).

Then of course there are some of the organisms with some additional features that enable them to survive better then the rest of their fellow mates rite? So those who are not suited to its environment die off and those only those who survived pass down their superior genes.So if we apply this theory on humans (lets say in O-U-R country). Only those R-Jay, H-See-Eye and better Vee-Jay-See people are allowed to survive and mate with each other so as to produce a superior breed of progeny.

Assume that this cycle continue on for the next 10 centuries, O-U-R country will be filled with GEP students with IQ of 200 and above!!!(Gasp loudly)
6-6=0 points for O level with the bonus for first 3 months, CCA and higher mother tongue is no longer the ultimate aim of all secondary students. The minimum points to get into a JC will be…
1) 10 A1s
2) 500hrs of CIP
3) 10 letters of recommendations from RECOGNISED or high profiled people (reputable doctors with minimum 10 Masters, professors, ministers, president, first lady, first man, Adam and eve or whoever noteworthy)
4) 3 talents which are musically, artistically and sports
5) Good looks
6) The more the merrier for point 1 to 4

Eventually, there will be no need for foreign talents. Other countries will beg for our talents instead and we can be a world export of talents!!!
E.g. lelong lelong! 1 million bucks for 1 talent. Quality checked and assured. 1 year guarantee, not happy can come back and change. While stocks last…still got 4 millions left only!

These people shall work as our undercover and eventually we will conquer the world!! Yay!

Lastly, it can be seen that there is no real need for underserving people such as me to survive so I might as well go and knock head, jump floor, jump sea, drink dettol, any other suggestions are also welcomed =)
Sacrifices are essential to create a better world with better human beings!!

Okay okay, I know this really is crap but still some truth in it rite?
As for me now, if I dun do well in both A level and fail my NAPHA test.
That would spell T-H-E-E-N-D for me. I might as well DIE.
Since I am…
1) Not good physically
2) Not musically inclined
3) Not artistically inclined
4) Not intellectually inclined
5) Did not get 270 and above for PSLE
6) Not a GEP
7) Did not get 6 points for O level
8) Average of D in promos
9) No S paper
10) No attachments during holidays
11) No hope of getting scholarships
12) No leadership qualities plus no post in school
13) Not good looking
14) No beneficial talents other than eat, sleep etc
15) Not good with English, the international language
16) Not articulate
17) Not sociable
18) Fat, ugly and highly possible to die before 30 due to coronary diseases, premature Alzheimer’s, cancers, hypertension and maybe Parkinson’s disease whatever.

PS: The above traits and phenotype or whatever points to a failure…and that’s me.
So the world does not need someone like me to siphon its resources.
Should I just die someday, guess no one will even realize that I am missing? Or maybe they will occasionally say things like “nigel WAS such a disgusting person. He WAS such a failure” (note past tense) when they had run out of topics to say. No worries, there are tons of better people around mahx =)

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
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~12:43 AM

happy chinese new year!
ok i dun really feel happy.My grandma's at hospital again...
Not that i'm very affected by it,cuz she is now a regular of sgh, but it always make the atmosphere at home gloomy when this happens.

Didnt get alot of angbao $$ but i dun really mind haha.a little money is still money,i'm already very very very very very fortunate compared to others who r living iun a much less previleged world than mine.haha i must b contented.

Hope this year will be a year with less misfortunes happening eg less earthquakes, less conflict btw china n taiwan, more happy family gatherings.

i dun really hate v_ anymore, maybe just dislike the way it is run, too fake, to say the least.

Had some fun reading other ppl's blog recently haha.blogs of ppl i noe but not too familiar with. Got to know a side of them previously unknown to me.

from various ppl around me, including my relatives, i suddenly realise that health is priceless.not tt i dunno it but today these few words really sink deep into me.hope tat i will stay healthy,although my heart has always been slightly weak.

OH YA!! i'm eaten alot for the past few days.chocolates, tarts, melon seeds, crackers etc....i've accumulated much fats in my body!!!!!that is the main reason why i decide to go for tml's cross country. i hate running, but no choice: i've not been exercising properly recently.

-s.m.-

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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
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we dream together.we spin tales of candy sugar together.we watch the world go by together. We the group, the posse, the band, the rockers. Together, us.